Dear Diary; F o u r

Dear diary, 

the kids are at the in laws, so I am currently appreciating the silence for a while. 

I have (of course) the never-ending house chores waiting... but I feel like I needed to relax a bit. 

Yesterday was the first time I made Laksa Sarawak!

So so glad that it turned out nice!:)

Without prawn tho, cuz errr everybody's allergic to it HAHAHAHA. 

By everybody I mean me & my grandma. hahahaha. 

Today I plan to cook assam pedas chicken cuz I am seriously out of ideas of what to cook! 

So far this few weeks I have been exploring (and upgraded!) my own cooking skills hehehe.

| Ayam percik 

| Laksa Sarawak 

| Nasi ayam 

..and a few others that I seriously cannot remember. All are chicken based cuz YES, AT THE AGE OF 29 I STILL DO NOT KNOW HOW TO PREPARE RAW FISH!!

Ugh, I hate that I don't know how cuz I am getting sick of eating just chicken!:[

I tried okay, but I would end up ruining the fish hahahha.

I know how to cook it tho, I just don't know how to remove all the inner parts. 

Other that that..

I have been compiling and taking more videos of the kids for memories.

Note to self, take more videos and pictures of your husband too ;)

Dear Diary; t h r e e

Dear Diary,

Hmmmm, I hate typing on the laptop with the keyboard's cover and I always take it off. 

The husband does the opposite, though. Haa. 

Today I finally got the time to actually focus a little more on the things I have been wanting to do.. 

..like clearing the work desk so I could actually USE IT to do productive things hahaha. 

Yes, everywhere is so cluttered & so is my mind...and I keep on escaping from it for quite some time now. I try though, so I clean little by little but it is a never ending task. *shrugs*

The priority now is the desk, cuz somehow we get things done if we do it at the right places lol. 

I am certainly not the type of people who can get things done on a bed. 

Few things from my checklist to clear, mostly things related to our shop. 

It is now fully my responsibility AND opportunity so I am trying to work extra hard for it.

Pray I can hold on to it as long as I can, I would love to have something in my life that I can be proud of; especially something that I know I worked my arse hard for. 

Anyhoo, I have been picking up books again,
current book is called TIDELINE by Penny Hancock. 

Signing off for now, 

3.35pm.

Dear Diary; t w o

Dear Diary,

Today's yet another normal day. I got the chance to rest a bit because I joined the kids for a nap earlier. Feeling slightly refreshed! 

Cooked them a one pot porridge, threw in some broccoli, sweet potato, chicken strips & onion. 

..with a dash of olive oil. 

The girls loved it, so that's going to be dinner as well.

As for the grown ups, I'll get some KFCs for us teeeeheeee.

Signing off for now!

Davina's asking for milk.

5.25pm 

Dear Diary; o n e

Dear Diary, 

Today is a normal day.. like usual. 

I am a bit moody though, probably because of the hormones because I have been feeling a bit tired than usual since the past few days. 

A couple of days ago I picked up a book to read again, (FINALLY!) and also decided that I should look for things to do that is productive.. Other than my usual home things. 

So here I am, trying to make this a "thing" for myself again. 

Here's why;

1) After Dayre wave was gone for me, I stopped updating as frequent as I did in any of my social medias.. I don't update for the likes or follows anymore, honestly ( I admit it, I used to love seeing all the likes and follows cuz errr I was a self proclaimed blogger? Lol) but when I looked at all my old posts on Dayre, I kinda miss it. I like reading about what I have done, what I have been through daily.. also it reminds me of the things my kids do! 

2) On other platforms I just didn't have the feel to share as much, you know? Weird. I mean, they're all pretty much the same? Whatever you decide to share on the internet has its pros and cons. 

Let's do this as a daily thing or at least weekly!

Better phone + better camera = reason to keep the memories somewhere cuz it's too expensive to develop all the photos hahahaha. 

Signing out;

6.30pm

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Finding myself again.

Assalamualaikum & Hi!

While my fish is frying in the kitchen, my second born is asleep, first born is at her grandma's, husband is at work..I shall blog a little. 

My thoughts today?

How do I motivate myself to do more things for myself?

How to feel inspired and have passion in doing *whatever it is that I feel like doing; at any point of time*?

This is a self reflection. 

Now let's see...

First, 

I gotta FIX MYSELF. 

"Fix myself" here means I need to be and feel all energetic again! 

I need to remind myself that I am only 28 years old & that IS NOT OLD AT ALL hahahahaha. 

Currently I am on my way there.. I am drinking a few traditional drinks that can help boost up my energy daily now.

Will share with you readers what I take daily, very soon I hope. 

Second, 

I need to start setting small goals (because I need to make sure that they're achievable for now) daily. 

A goal that's not my usual daily mommy routine. 

Third, 

I need to take photos again! 

Cleared my phone for this.. and perhaps I should pick up my camera again. :) 

Fourth, 

Jot down random things.

Although I find this a bit hard to do, because I am scared that people might read my notebook hahahaha but I guess it can help me in some ways.

Especially when it comes to my blog! 

Right?

Fifth, 

Let's just keep the list short for now, yeah?

Hmmmm maybe I should look for a role model cum inspiration? 

Yes and yes. 

Excuse the quality of the photo but hey, it's a start. 

Hahahaha. 

Will try to find time to start taking decent photos again. 

Don't you wanna welcome me back in the world of blogging, my dear readers? 

Teeeeheeee. 

Blog again soon! 

<3

We'll see where this goes.

Assalamualaikum & Hi!

Oh wow can't believe I am here again typing..trying to think of what kind of things I might be sharing most of the time now. 

Shifting from my old blog to a new one wasn't easy at all; I've been trying and trying,..I have a few that I have already abandoned or are still in draft mode- 

cheers to not giving up in trying again hahaha.

2017 is definitely quite a challenging start for me.. It's April now and I have two girls calling me Ibu..

Phew. 

I have so so many things in mind that I need to let out, and quite a handful of thoughts that I wanna remember..thus the birth of another new blog. 

Not gonna expect anything from this, this time..

This is just simply a journal for me to read again later on when- I need it (1), when my kids are all grown up and I need to know I did a shitty or a great job in raising them (2).

I did try writing in a real book (hahaha) but I stopped cuz my hand hurts when I write too much and my handwriting is so shitty now and and it's slower when I write so.... 

Having this space means I can upload their photos with captions on it so I can remember what the photos are about, plus I love typing on keyboards so..

YES to a lot of reasons why I should really start a new blog I can call a journal.

I can also fix my English a little although I won't be posting in proper grammar and all but at least that's something. 

Let's do this! 

PLEASE. 

Expect some roller coaster rides in this one though. I might have rants here and there although I hope I won't rant too much here hahaha let's try to be positive as much as we can. 

Talk to you soon.